I was beginning to wonder why I was taking so long to decide whether or not to do breast reconstruciton surgery after my cancer treatment. I was very ambivalent about the whole thing.
Did I really need to have "breasts"? What was the big deal? Did I want to put myself through MORE surgery, and this time for cosmetic reasons?
Well...I finally decided to go ahead and start the process after much discussions with various friends of mine, both female and male, and had the skin expanders placed and the surgical flap revised (removal of old scar tissue and such). That was on Monday. I vaguely recall coming out of the OR and asking my nurse "Why did I decide to do this again???"
I can honestly say that this surgery was way more painful than my intial bilateral mastectomy. Probably because of all the removal of scar tissue and adhesions, but.....OUCH!!! If I had this knowledge beforehand, I cannot honestly say that I would make the same decision. Everyone was very nice at the hospital and I can't say that they weren't on top of my pain....as much as they could be without knocking me out completely again, but mmmmmm....let's just say that I'm not looking forward to the next surgery!!! Boobs or no boobs!
Love,
Mel
Did I really need to have "breasts"? What was the big deal? Did I want to put myself through MORE surgery, and this time for cosmetic reasons?
Well...I finally decided to go ahead and start the process after much discussions with various friends of mine, both female and male, and had the skin expanders placed and the surgical flap revised (removal of old scar tissue and such). That was on Monday. I vaguely recall coming out of the OR and asking my nurse "Why did I decide to do this again???"
I can honestly say that this surgery was way more painful than my intial bilateral mastectomy. Probably because of all the removal of scar tissue and adhesions, but.....OUCH!!! If I had this knowledge beforehand, I cannot honestly say that I would make the same decision. Everyone was very nice at the hospital and I can't say that they weren't on top of my pain....as much as they could be without knocking me out completely again, but mmmmmm....let's just say that I'm not looking forward to the next surgery!!! Boobs or no boobs!
Love,
Mel
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